Inner Springs

Here I am happy rowing my boat against the tide. Please do remember me and pray for me as rowing alone is hard and the tides are strong.

Ever willing to be honest to myself and to God

Where am I coming from, What am I doing, Where am I going...

Where am I coming From; what am I doing and where I am going, are the words I over heard when somebody was sharing with one of my friends. When I heard these words abruptly fear gripped me. They made me stand there in isolation reminding me of my journey; a journey of purpose rather a journey of earning a livelihood.

Friends Last

I met few of my friends today. Those with whom I stayed together for seven years in a row. Surprised and overwhelmed I hugged them and I could even feel the same from my friends. These are the moments of reunion. In spite of all the busy work schedule I found time to be with them. We all laughed recalling all those past moments of joy and suffering we shared to together. Now I know that what ever may happen, many come and go, many more seem important than even our parents in life but even after few days they become just passing clouds but friends remain just to relate with me in life and without any expectation. Cherishing friendship, remembering my good old friends who enriched my life I feel this is the greatest gift of God for me.
We fought, we gossiped about each other, we laughed, we shared more over we lived. We are growing in age but when I saw them I behaved like a 12 year old boy because our friendship started its voyage at that age of mine. It is lovely to  be in the company of friends. Do you know people shed tears when they are happy, have you ever heard about this… yeah! I get them when I think of these guys.  I am not able to get words to write but my feelings are profound.

Intersubjectivity

Relationships are best parts of my life. I grow through relationships. what ever sort of relations they might be. they are nourshing and complementary to life.  Through my relationships I peep inside the world of others and experience their uniqueness. When I talk to others  there is a new way of thinking coming into my life otherwise my thinking would be monadic and hence for me varity and creativity come from relationships. Parents, friends, colleagues, relations show us varied ways of leading life and accepting and welcoming those changes would certain times be painful but they bring clarity from different perspectives to my thoughts. I would say that one could go to any extent to relate. The meaning of a true human being’s life comes only when he relates. For me the relation may not be only with human beings. Relating is connecting the more I relate the more I conect with the wibe of the other. It is an ever continuing process of fidelity and sharing. One starts relating (living) with whatever come to him/her in life. It is not a stagnent process but it is a flow of life that one experiences as one lives. Living could be synonymous to relating for me. you may not agree with me but if I am living now I would say I am relating now cause when I live I cant but relate. I know the one who learns to relate with self first and then with other is human.
Openness is a paramount ingredient of any relation to start continueing. Openness for the self and the other in all his or her dealings with me. Acceptance is the key for the flow to flow without flaw. Man learns to relate and in this everflowing process of many life of relating with acceptance and openness man sees the ultimate.

I am an "I man"

I make a lot of fun talking to others, walking with them in the road of relationship; I even enjoy myself staying alone in the company of nature. I do everything to make my self happy. I go to movies, I eat the best food I can, wear the best of clothes I have and immerse myself in the world of enjoyment and pleasure but slowly now I notice that till to day I have become an “I man.”

Togeather Forever

Distance may become farther
Deeply immersed in my own world
I may remain Harder
Love gives me strength to reachout
I come with universal equanimity
Not to take you away from yourself
But to be with you in your company alone my dear
To draw strength from you

Silence is the Answer

Am I living....? Am I exploring into life with subjectivity or being invaded by the mass media around me.This is the question which everyone must ask themselves.
Today men and women are bombarded with Media at schools, collages, and work places advertizements spots. which goes into the mind of a person; religious teachings, pep talks, chit chat, complaints, celebrations, dances, arts, paintings are some other forms of communication which goes into human brain. There is only input to human brain and there is hardly any time for us to refrain and see what is to be assimilated and discarded. Human person is unconsciously brain washed about his way of life. It seems that an ordinary person is absolutely bewildered about his choice of forms of communicative materials that he suppose to take. He is totally confused about what movie to watch or which shirt to buy, which car to select leave out the essentials which he or she suppose to decide for life. In my view all this is happening because of the flood of information which is sweeping human person off his feet.

Every company these days is coming with its own strategy to lure people into buying their products and it has almost become like enticing a child into buying a product. A person is tickled, enticed and manipulated into buying their products. Each brand has its own business tactics to bring people to buy things which are not necessary even for them. Not to exaggerate things but I need to say that I have seen people who stopped attending college because their parents didn't purchase for them a pair of branded Jeans pants which they feel is a matter of prestige to wear.

From small children to the one's who are going to kick the bucket tomorrow or day after want the commodities or services which are advertised in various communication channels and people are thinking that having those will bring them the contentment. In communicative terms this is called noise. Technically speaking noise is something which deters one not to get communicated properly.


 In this hyper communicative world Human person many a times is not able to discern what he needs. The only solution which I get for this phenomenon is SILENCE. The inner silence will come to the rescue of the human in this critical condition making him to see things clearly where the grey area is largely infested. These brands names or prestige of buying up latest gadgets would never bring contentment but a clear picture of this crazy world with a silent mind does. Once you are silent inward you see the fare, the celebration you laugh at people who run for superficial things. One knows the distinction between the important and the futile.The only weapon which you and I can have in this consumerstic world is the inner silence to discern.  

Life of a Genuine Man

I saw him when I was 20 as he was celebrating mass sitting on a wheel chair. I met him when I was 24 in person. Fr Jacob is a Catholic Priest belonging to the Salesian Province of Hyderabad. Hailing from a vintage parish in Kerala he was a youngster who loved to enjoy life with his friends, wear baggy and bellbottom pants, go for films and like every other youngster wanted to chase his dreams in life. Joined seminary (a place of formation for Catholic Priest hood) as a good seminarian he spent his 12 years of life in forming himself to be adept at human relations, self search, Meditation, learning Philosophy and theology. All this he did to serve the divine and the human.

Fr Jacob never realized that God had a different plan for his life. Yes definitely he is goanna be a priest but a priest of Silent Proclamation of the word of God. That's why he is a subtle but profound inspiration to me. Ohh I am sorry, let me come to Father's life. Unfortunately, Father Jacob had met with an accident.  What I heard was that he was dashed from behind by a lorry as he was passing the road. From then on Fr Jacob was on bed or on wheel chair. He is paralyzed from waist below. A life of a young man who dreamt of becoming a hero of his own dreams as a PRIEST watered down with one knock. It's been 18 now that he is on the wheel chair deploying his priestly duties. In spite of all the difficulties, discouragements, humiliations all these years Fr Jacob has remained a man of HOLY JOY and SERINITY which no one who is earning 1lakh a month can get.  He is silent, regular for his prayers, meals and he spends time chatting with armatures like me. Telling us silently how to relish life as it comes in our way in its own varied forms. He did not teach me any big dogma or about his past achievements but he spent his time with me. He connected me in silence and I could see that thing called "holiness" in him.      

Inner Springs

World teaches me logic, but I want to learn to love
World teaches me Maths, but I want to learn generosity
World teaches me Science, but I want to beleive
World teaches me to Socialize, but I want to relate

World teaches me to use brain, but I want to employ Heart

Because, I believe

Heart has a its reason which the reason knows nothing of...

Transitions

Life is a transition, its all passing. we notice all the transitions in life and some time I enjoy the transitions that occur to me and some other times I dont. Wheather one accepts or not rather one enjoys or not the things that suppose to occur, occur for sure.